the years of conservatism and limitation

so i think nows as good a time as any to kinda talk about how shit was back when i lived w/ my folks here in beavercreek oh, from about 95 to 03.

so we're dealin with the years 1995 through 2003 firstly.

the place is beavercreek ohio a state in midwest usa,

so yeah i was a kid when we came over. first off i was about... 9 when we arrived. we moved to stonebridge then to colonial drive, schoolwise i was @ main for a week or 2, then fairbrook ankeney and mvs for 5 yrs. after which i left for college.

so this is the time we're dealin with.

anyhow. my folks were fuckin conservative. we're takling pretty fuckin shitty. like shit was not good. i had to deal with them on a daily basis. i now look at them as chris equivolents. it was fucking difficult. there were so many fucking people that i never really got to know. honestly id say that shit has not been tht great hah. i dont think i had a real friend from 95 to 03. i wasnt allowed to have people over. i wasnt allowed to leave much. we were taught to be obedient. and the reason it worked is cause they were the only people we knew. but the mor epeople i meet, the more i realize what they're really about. but anyway they're my fokls. no matter where i move they'll always be that to me. but i don't have to do anything because of it.

i'd definately say one of the biggest issues right now is the money thing. like literally shit is not fucking good. they're fucking paying for everything. every fucking thing i own they paid for. they fucking rent my apartment. they fucking gave me my car. they fucking bought me my guitars. its fucking crazy. theyve basically bought fucking everything ive ever owned. theyve also fucking paid for every fucking trip ive ever been on. theyve paid for every fucking meal ive had. theyve even paid for all the fucking booze ive had. and they also paid for all the fucking drugs i knocked back. they fucking paid for the hosipital time from the drug overdose. they fucking paid for anitas morning after pills. they fucking paid for her bill. my entire life has been lived on their fucking backs. they fucking paid for my school. and fucking college. theyve bought every musical instrument ive ever bought. its fucking staggering all the shit theyve bought. alot of those things were fucking useful. but they also paid for my fucking plane tickets to get me to america. and they fucking paid for the house that we lived in. they fucking bought all the houses i lived in. three fucking houses in england. one fucking house in america. two fucking farms. many cars. all my clothes. just every fucking thing i own. you can fucking see how deep im fucking into with my parents. theyve fucking paid for so much shit. its enough to make you feel worthless. like you would just never be able to pay for the expensive shit. i do fucking know that thats gonna be a fucking issue im going to fucking have to work around. but what can you fucking do.