so why does this exist. basically because of a conversation anita and i had about her past which kinda also works for my past too. basically my idea was that she kinda go through those pains of her past daily and put them someplace, after all tehy were her emotions and she should express them all to feel really fully satisfied as a human being. so ill be doing the same thing with my thoughts. vivek england chicago and life in ohio plus anything else like college memories and school before qegs and even heathfield or anything else. it all deserves to be written and expressed. so thats why this exists.